18 november 2010

gue lahir 18 november 1990.. 20 tahun yang lalu tepatnya.. hahaha

skg gue uda 20taon coy...
uda masuk kepala 2 ini...

dan pada hari yg berbahagia ini, saia akan menyampaikan sesuatu.. halah.. apa2an sih..

1st, terimakasih atas segala surprisenya yang teman2 saia berikan.. mau yg uda ketahuan.. mau yg uda ketahuan dan tetep dijalanin dihari yg berbeda dan datangnya juga bener2 ga diduga.. trus buat yg combo 2 juga, bener2 dah lu pada... hahahaha... buat salut gue.. lu pada niat bener..
sampe skg gw ga berhenti tersenyum ingat2 yang tadi lu org lakuin ke gue.. wkwkwkkw

begini ceritanya...

17 november 2010
jam 11an malam, tiba2 ga ada angin, ga ada badai, si michelle ym gue,
bilang bete, mau cerita dan mau ke kost..
uda lgsg mikir negatif gue...
ada apa ini, kok tiba2 kyk gini, dan pas nyampe kost gue, gue tny mau cerita apa,
dia ketawa ketiwi, blg ntar aja.. ntar aja...
nah.. semakin mikir lagi donk gue.. pasti ada apa2ny ni dia ke kost gue.. hahaha...
dan tepat jam 12.. dia ucapin happy bday ke gue, beserta sebuah tamparan.. sial!!! gue ditampar.. ckckckck.. awas lu ya le... tunggu aja.. hahaha *dendam*
trus dia ama desi kekeh ngajakin gue makan.. trus gue ga enak, yg jaga dibawah tu pak erwin, tp mereka kekeh, ya udalah, krn gue baik, gw temenin.. wkwkkw
pas turun kebawah, mereka suruh gue duluan, gue kekeh ga mau, ga enak, yg jaga pak erwin, trus setelah debat beberapa lama, ya sudahlah.. krn gue baek lagi, gue ikutin.. pas buka pintu, gue uda liat.. wah ada org.. tamba mikir yg ngak2, ternyata, ada cindy,rere dan guspiter a.k.a botak
mereka bawa cake!! surprise gt deh.. ahahaha... dan uda ketahuan sih...
but, thx u.. uda cape2 jalan dari kostan sampe ke kostan gue..
yang jauh sekali.. wkwkwkw. makasi bgt!!! hahahaa...

dan seharian itu gw waswas bgt.. ada yg ngajak pegi. apalagi rosi, citra, vika, siapa lag ya? angelen, semuanya deh.. ada yg ajak pegi aja, gue mikir2 lagi.. neting bgt dah gue... trus 18 nov itu kan kamis ya, itu ada latian, gw mikir2 lagi mau latian apa ga, pas uda mau latian, eh.. hujaaann.. sial...
tapi pada akhirnya saia kekeh ke lapangan, dan ternyata disana tidak ada apa2... aman2.. kelar latian trus kongko2, lalu pulang.. pulang, mandi.. lalu pegi lagi.. pegi terus dah gue, ga ada cape2nya.. ketemu angelen, halim dan marvin di nine square.. gue kesana ama desi.. krn desi mau makan, jadi gt de.. ditemenin,, dan berakhirlah ultah gue.. dan btw, hp gue ga bisa sms.. rusak ga jelas kenapa.. uda ganti hp juga tetep ga bisa sms.. pasrah deh gue...

nah tgl 19 gue masi waswas, tp berhubung gue ujian, rada aman... nah ini ni... ini ni..tgl 20 a.k.a hari ini.. pagi2 gue bgn, tanpa mikir apa2, emank si kemarin malam agak bete, tp paginya uda baekan, uda ga bete, dan gue tetep cuekin 1 org. wkwkwk.. maap yak.. saia emang sengaja.. wkwkwkw.. jadi kesanny gue masi bete.. dan pada jam 10-12an, gue lag online tuh. lagi cari2 lagu.. trus baru aja mau keluar pegi makan, jadi mikirny jam 1 cari makan, plg mandi, trus ke senayan, jogging.. guess what.. jam 12an, org2 tak diundang datang.. tebak donk siapa mereka?
lalala
lala
la
la
*mengikuti jejak puguh* wkwkwkwk

mereka adalah... eng ing eng.. cit, vhia, dx,vika, seijin dan liel.
org2 yg paling males gue temuin dalam minggu ini, mereka berkumpul jadi 1...
pas masuk. gue uda mikir.. mampus gue. mampus... MAMPUS!!!
mereka nanya, mau yg cara halus atau kasar?
gue : ga dua2nya.. wkwkkwk
dan pada akhirnya..
gue ga tau itu cara halus atau kasar.. yg jelas gue diapa2in.. >.< pertama..kykny mata gue ditutup.. trus baju gue dibuka.. jadi tgl bra doank.. sial!!! then gw dipakein baju apa gt, gue juga ga tau... trus celana gue juga.. tgl cd, then dipakein sarung.. jadi gue cuma make sarung ama baju ga jelas... mata gue uda ditutup kan tu.. trus tangan gue diikat!!!! oh iya.. tdak lupa name tag yg super duper gede.. dan gue ga tau itu tulisanny apa... pokokny intiny ttg bday2 dah... ya uda.. sambil menunggu mobil yg menjemput gue datang, menunggu diruang tunggu bersama dx dan vika.. ok.. dan skg gue masuk kemobil.. dikawal sama vika, dx.. didepan ada liel dan cit.. cit nyetir.. motor gw dibawa ama vhia atau seijin.. ga tau yg mana, pokokny antara mereka berdua deh.. sampailah ditkp.. gue diiket dipohon!!!! pasrah sepasrah2nya.. pertama dikasi indomi pedes.. pertama indomienya.. gue ga mau makan, krn uda kecium baunya.. trus dikasi kuahnya.. tamba ga mau.. tp krn kuah, yg kena bibir gue doank.. sial pedesnya.... >.< keduaa.. gue ditimpuk2in.. ada tepung..telor.. kecap.. KOPI!!! trus ga tau apa lag dah.. yg gue ingat cuma itu,, yg kecium cuma itu.. trus ada org lewat kan.. pada nyanyiin lagu happy bday gt.. gue kirain yg ngerjain gue itu superduper byk.. ternyata bener2 cuma mereka ber6... sial!!!! dan kelar di timpuk2.. dipoto2 dll.. gue ditinggalin.. jadi gue cuma dikasi gunting, handuk dan kunci motor.. disuru pulang sendiri.. trus... pas dikasi gunting.. gue lgsg motong ikatan ditangan, trus guntingny gue buang.. gue lempar.. *kebodohan gue.. terlalu byk nntn film ini mah* trus gue berusaha keluar dari ikatan di pohon.. pas yg dipaha ga bisa... >.< utg ada org lewat, dan gw minta tlg ambil gunting.. dan akhirnya gue bebas dr pohon.. sampe orgnya nanya, mau dianterin plg ga.ahahaha.. sumpah.. GUE MALU BGT!!!!! trus pas jalan pulang gue ketemu temen gue, semuany pada liatin gue.. malunya itu tu.. >.<
pada akhriny gw plg kost.. mandi dan beres2, kamar gue masi bau kopi nyong.. terutama kamar mandi.. kelar mandi gue ke CnC di dloft.. makan2.. kelar makan ke senayan, jogging..gue uda diperingatin buat bawa baju lebi.. pas gue nyampe.. mereka uda mau kelar.. gue jogging sendiri,sekalian liatin, ada mobil cit ga..
hahahaha.. gue diboongin ama cindy.. tp ntah dia tau apa ga.. intinya seharusny jogging 8putaran, jadi 10 putaran..cape tauuu... sial!!! ya uda, kelar jogging masi ada lag ternyata, sprint dan harus dapet 6 detik.. 10x, dan setelah itu ada lompat kijang, tp cuma 5 set, nah pas uda set ke 3, gue merasa ada yg aneh, kok si depi nangkring dibelakang gue ya? trus rosi didepan gue.. ada yang aneh.. dan gue kurang sigap krn gue uda cape sprint sana sini.. dan gue digendong.. adys, cindy, dino uda siap aja bawa tepung, ama apa si? gue cuma tau tepung doank ni.. pokokny intiny gue ditimpuk2 lagi... sial!!!! paginya bau kopi.. sorenya baru tepung.. bener2 lu org... good job bgt deh..
setelah timpuk2an, gue dikasi cake.. dan ada insiden.. kunci mobil rosi didalem mobil, dan mobilny uda di lock.. wkwkwkkw... bener2 dah..
serasa gue ultah hari ini.. wkwkwkw
tp thx for all....
niat bener bikin ultah gue kyk gini...
dari gue yg ketakutan.. ama cit yg devilny lagi muncul.. trus ama rosi yg bergabung sama dia.. GILA!!!! dan hari ini.. kelar semua. ketakutan gue uda ilang.. krn lu org uda berhasil timpuk2 gue...
ckckckckckc

pada saat siang harinya with vhia, dx, vika, liel n seijin.. tanpa cit

MAKASI BGT LHOOO....

nb : poto2 lain akan menyusul

a few thought in my mind

- you are my everything.. why dont u see it??

- i can be whatever u want me to be.. just say it..

- you can call me anytime u want...

- if u need me, i will be there.. even i'm busy..

- without you.. i will be nothing.. but from nothing.. it will be something..

- i see you every night in my dream.. but i dont see you in my real life

- i love you more than anyone in this earth.. why u dont realize it?

- if i just can disappear... i will do it..

- when i say.. "i miss you" or "i'm thinking of you" i meant it...

- if you could just stay.. it would be better..

-

favourite songs

Sick Enough to Die - MC Mong ft. Mellow *translate to english*

I found the way to let you leave
I never really had it coming
I can't believe the sigh of you
I want you to stay away from my heart

I'm on my way to the front of your house. Pick up my phone. Hurry up
I'm dying because of the pain, you know
If i cant see you, i feel like i could die
Please pick up the phone. Only for a minute, try to listen to my words. Just a while
Because i think, i'm dying, i cant breathe
Let me live, please, only once. In front of your house. For 4 hours
You're breaking my heart, but you dont know
Are you laughing? Are you happy? All the memories and left me
The silence that made me hurt and choke
Suddenly, the rain who took my tears away
Goose bumps from my head to my toe, i feel my blood pumping
Just like a poison. All day long, suffering, but she's gone
Looking at your eyes, i miss it, that's why sing this song

Please help me to get out of this hellish place
If this is a dream, hurry, wake me up
Please say that everything were a lie
Please say it, say it to me, so that i could live

I found the way to let you leave
I never really had it coming
I can't believe the sigh of you
I want you to stay away from my heart

Everyday and night, i'm drunk
There's no place in my heart, even for a while
If time is a drug, why it's not going away?
This is not right, this love's cheat
Sorry. I'm so greedy
Even sleeping pills cant help me
When i'm thinking of you, day and night changed
Walk around back and forth, struggling
The sky is my rival, or easily threw me away?
If i force myself to love someone else, will i live again?
Go around between the stars. Fills my heart with a song
Dont leave, let me freeze, help me a little. Help me please

Please help me to get out of this hellish place
If this is a dream, hurry, wake me up
Please say that everything were a lie
Please say it, say it to me, so that i could live

I found the way to let you leave
I never really had it coming
I can't believe the sigh of you
I want you to stay away from my heart

I dont want you to leave, dont leave me
Dont say to me that this is the end
Even if it's only a day, i cant live without you
I want you back, want you back into my life

I found the way to let you leave
I never really had it coming
I can't believe the sigh of you
I want you to stay away from my heart

The sky is my rival, or easily threw me away?
If i force myself to love someone else, will i live again?
Go around between the stars. Fills my heart with a song
Dont leave, let me freeze, help me a little. Help me please

I'm going to wait for you until i die. Whatever you say to me
I'll still wait for you. I'll be back tomorrow, i'll be back tomorrow

One in A Million - Ne-Yo

Jet setter
Go getter
Nothing better
Call me Mr. been there done that
Top model chick to your every day hood rat
Less than all but more than a few
But I've never met one like you

Been all over the world
Done a little bit of everything
Little bit of everywhere
With a little bit of everyone
All the girls I've been with
Things I've seen it takes much to impress
But sure enough you go it makes your soul stand up from all the rest

I can be in love
But I just don't know
Baby one thing is for certain
Whatever you do it's working
All the girls don't matter
In your presence can't do what you do
There's a million girls around but I don't see no one but you

Girl you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this

You're not a regular girl
You don't give a damn about your look
Talking about I can't do it for you
But you can do it for yourself
Even though that ain't so
Baby cause my dough don't know how to end
But that independent thing I'm with it
All we do is win baby

I could be in love
But I just don't know
Baby one thing is for certain
Ne-yo One In A Million lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com/neyo-one-in-a-million-lyrics.html

Whatever you do it's working
All the girls don't matter
In your presence can't do what you do
There's a million girls around but I don't see no one but you

Baby you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this
Girl you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this

Timing girl
Only one in the world
Just one of a kind
She mine

Ooh all that I can think about is what this thing could be
A future baby
Baby you're one of a kind
That means that you're the only one for me
Only one for me
Baby (girl) you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this
Girl you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this

Go Away - 2NE1 *translate to english*

You're so cheap and this isn't like you
I can't get used to it now, It makes me dizzy, why
Who's breaking up with who
You're breaking up with me
Think it over before you say it, yeah

A guy that used to follow me around, a very decent guy
I let everything go for you alone
Who's breaking up with who
You're breaking up with me
Try living without me, yeah

Tonight of all times, why is it raining again
It makes me look so pitiful
Don't try to console me
Move this hand, we're strangers now

Don't worry about me and go away
I'll disappear, no strings attached
You thought I'd hang onto you
It's disgusting, don't misunderstand

I'll meet someone so much better
I'll make you regret it all
Sadness is only for now, boy
Cause love is over
Love, love is over tonight

Just say what you gotta say
How can you be uncool to the very end?
Fiancé? Beyonce
I'm walkin' out of destiny
Not pitifully alone, but a glamorous solo
That's my way
I gave it my all, so I don't have regrets

Pretending like you're more sad
Pretending you're cool to the end
All you do is act a fool
You ain't shi.t without your crew
I don't have time, I gotta go
So long, good bye, adios
I don't want to see your ugly face again no more

Tonight of all times, why is it raining again
It makes me look so pitiful
Don't try to console me
Move this hand, we're strangers now

Don't worry about me and go away
I'll disappear, no strings attached
You thought I'd hang onto you
It's disgusting, don't misunderstand

I'll meet someone so much better
I'll make you regret it all
Sadness is only for now, boy
Cause love is over
Love, love is over tonight

Go go away
Go away
Go away
Go away

Don't worry about me and go away
I'll disappear, no strings attached
You thought I'd hang onto you
It's disgusting, don't misunderstand

I'll meet someone so much better
I'll make you regret it all
Sadness is only for now, boy
Cause love is over
Love, love is over tonight

Nobody - Wondergirls *translate to english*

You Know I still Love You Baby.
And it will never change. (Saranghae)

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Why are you trying to, to make me leave ya
I know what you're thinking
Baby why aren't you listening
How can I just
Just love someone else and
Forget you completely
When I know you still love me

Telling me you're not good enough
My life with you is just too tough
You know it's not right so
Just stop and come back boy
How can this be
When we were meant to be

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Why can't we just, just be like this
Cause it's you that I need and nothing else until the end
Who else can ever make me feel the way I
I feel when I'm with you, no one will ever do

Telling me you're not good enough
My life with you is just too tough
You know me enough so
You know what I need boy
Right next to you is where I need to be.

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I don't want no body, body
I don't want no body, body

Honey you know it's you that I want, it's you that I need
Why can't you see~

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Back to the days when we were so young and wild and free
Nothing else matters other than you and me
So tell me why can't it be
Please let me live my life my way
Why do you push me away
I don't want nobody nobody nobody nobody but you.

Prisoner of Love - Utada Hikaru *translate to english*

With an indifferent face you tell a lie
Laughing until you feel sick
"Let's have nothing but fun" you said

Feeling blue over desiring the impossible
Everyone is seeking tranquility
You're struggling, but you've had enough
Now you're chasing after a shadow of love

Since the day you appeared
My dull "everyday"s have begun to shine
Now I'm able to think, "Feeling loneliness, being in pain - that's not so bad"
I'm just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love


Through painful times and healthy times,
Stormy days and sunny days, let's walk on together

I'm gonna tell you the truth
I chose an unforeseeably painful path
and you came to support me
You're the only one I can call a friend

Fake displays of strength and avarice have become meaningless
I've been in love with you since that day


When I'm free, with time to spare, there's no life in being alone
I'm just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love

Oh... Just a little more
Don't you give up
Oh don't ever abandon me
If the cruelty of reality tries to tear us apart
We'll be drawn more closely to one another
Somehow, somehow, I have a feeling we'll be able to stand firm
I'm just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love

Every day banalities quickly begin to shine brilliantly
You stole my heart that day
Loneliness and pain I thought I could deal with
I'm just a prisoner of love

Stay with me, stay with me
My baby, say you love me
Stay with me, stay with me
Don't leave me alone again

F.A.M.I.L.Y

F : Father
A : and
M : Mother
I : i
L : Love
Y : You

gw kangen ama mereka.. ama dad, mom and my brother. gw kangen suasana rumah. gw kangen semuanya... liburan ga ada kerjaan kyk gini membuat gw homesick bgt, gw bisa aja keluar, jalan2, tp pikiran gw tu pengen pulang mulu. gw jalan2, puter sana puter sini, ngitungin seberapa besar mall ini, mall itu, tetep aja tiep malam gw berpikir lagi klo gw pengen pulang... AKU MAU PULAAAANNNGG... >.< biasany gw pulang atau ngak itu sama aja, tp skg gw super duper mau pulang. gw merasa tidak betah disini, walaupun ada teman2 gw disini, menemani gw, gw merasa itu tidak cukup, gw mau keluarga gw.. gw mau dad, mom and my bro. kenapa gw ga bisa jadi sedikit egois, buat nurutin kemauan gw sendiri, sigh.. gw harus bersabar beberapa bulan lag, sampai akhir tahun, gw baru bisa pulang, walaupun cuma pulang beberapa hari, gw jabanin dah.. gw mau plg, mau melepas rindu, ama ortu, n dd gw, ama makanan2 sana, ama suasana sana, pantai dll. jalan2 malam, ke gereja, bertemu temen2, gw mau semua ituuuu... kali ini homesick gw parah bgt dah.. uda stadim 4, uda stadium akhir.. gw mau plg, ok, cukup about pulang2an.. krn inti dari paragraf ini adalah gw homesick dan mau plg.. hahaha..
jadwal kuliah gw uda kluar, gw bersyukur jadwal gw ga bentrok ama latian, dmana rabu gw kuliah ampe jam 1, kamis kul ampe jam 7 dan sabtu kul ampe jam 3, selasa gw lupa kul ampe jam brapa, dan jumat gw libur.. =D taon ini BiNus kejurnas lag, kali ini harus lebi dipersiapin daripada taon lalu. harus lebi maksimal, semester ini IP gw naik, walaupun ga byk, tp At least naik. dan semester depan harus naik juga.. semangat!!! kuliah, kerja, basket, kuliah, kerja, basket..masi ada beberapa bulan lag.. beberapa bulan lag... gw harus bisa, sepertinya, saia akan melepaskan pra pon, walopun disuru ikut,, itu masi sepertiny sih... =D uda ah.. uda pagi.. dadah.. hari ini mau pegi survey.. semoga saia bangun... mornink!!!!

reality

someone love you.. someone always watching you right here.. someone need you.. someone want you... someone miss you... and who is someone??
tweet gw tadi pagi.. wkwkwkkw

bingung mau nulis awalny apa.. uda sekian lama cuy kagak ngeblog.. melalui berbagai macam suka dan duka... lebi tepatnya si beberapa kebahagian sejenak dan beberapa kesulitan yang masih belum menemukan cara yang tepat untuk menyelesaikan.. dan saia memilih untuk bercerita disini, mana tau aja saia ketemu caranya.. hahaha... uda cape curhat ke org2, kadang ada yg tidak menanggapi dengan serius, malah dicandain terus. kadang ada yg tidak peduli, masa bodoh lebi tepatnya, kadang mau cerita, tp momentny ga tepat, *ga pake acara nangis2 ye..* kok kesanny skg gw ga punya temen ye? *ada yg menjawab, perasaan mu sajah...* ya suda.. cukup pendahuluannya... masi kita ke pokok permasalahan sajah...

1. PEDE
sekarang gw merasa PEDE gw itu berkurang.. dalam maen basket tentunya.. PEDE gw berkurang banget. gw ngerasa permainan gw uda menurun bgt.. sampe ada yg ngomong gt wktu gw tny dia. malah gw di blg ga niat maen.. haha.. gw bingung.. gw masi pengen maen basket, tp ntah napa buat main di tim itu sulit bgt.. pikiran gw selalu menggangy gw... bilang gw ga cukup bagus, ga bisa ini ga bisa itu. dan semua itu membuat gw jadi ga PEDE. maennya asal2an, baru maen 1 atau 2 menit, gw uda ngelakuin segudang kesalahan *lebay sih.. benernya, gw uda ngelakuin byk kesalahan deh* dari kesalahan kecil, sampai kesalahan fatal. skg gw jadi memikirkan itu semua.. gw malah mikir mau berhenti daripada memperbaiki itu semua. seakan2 jadi loser.. haha.. i dont wanna be a loser!!!! GRRR... masa gw kalah ama keadaan kyk gini?? gw uda sering kyk gini tp pada saat kemarin2 tu gw bisa bangkit, knp skg gw ga bisa bangkit lag? gw butuh waktu berapa byk buat bangkit? kykny ga butuh.. krn gw suka maen basket, itu hobby gw. itu yg bisa buat gw lupain segala permasalahan gw sejenak dan bermain dengan bola orange itu. *baru ingat bola basket ga selalu orange.. hahaha* tp skg gw malah punya masalah ama basket.. yaitu ga PEDE!!! di game selanjutnya gw harus buktiin.. ngomong ga guna tanpa pembuktian. 2 hari ini rest dah gw.. uda mau sakit gini.. atau lebi tepatna uda sakit!! dan hari ini latian jam 2 siang.. semoga saia sanggup... =D

kykny masalah gw itu aja deh.. mungkin masi ada lag. tp ga bisa gw publish.. hahaha... terlalu pribadi klo yang ini... dan gw lag seneng!!!! gw telah menemukan ebook enid blyton yang gw cari selama ini... setelah beberapa kali muter2 gramedia.. cari ni buku, ga ketemu2, akhirny gw ketemu ebookny, walopun ga lengkap, tp gpp,,, akan gw ketik dan kirim ke adekku.. semoga dia membaca.. tp bakal membosankan, krn isiny cuma text aja. coba aja bukunya,gw beli 1 set, sebagai hadiah ultahnya bulan lalu.. buku yang bagus buat anak2, dan saia suka membacanya... ini judul bukunya..

1. si babi ungu
2. si gadis penakut
3. monyet mike
4. tommy si pengadu
5. tiga permintaan
6. cermin ajaib
7. gadis kaya yang sombong
8. anak dalam cermin

saia tinggal mencari ebook sigadis penakut dan gadis kaya yang sombong. wkwkkw. .senangnya bisa membaca lagi.. bacaan gw waktu masi kecil dan skg bukuny uda hilang diterjang tsunami.

berbagai macam masalah datang dalam hidup gw. mau itu yang membuat gw mengeluh terus dan membuat gw gila sesaat. gw akan melalukan yang terbaik buat mereka, sebisa gw.. krn gw tau bagaimana rasanya di cuekin ama org2, dmana lu lag pengen didenger, tp ga ada yg bisa dengerin lu, dmana lu menangis, tp ga ada 1 orgpun disebelah lu temenin lu. gw ga bisa janjiin lu apapun, tp gw akan melakukan sebisa gw, semampu gw, buat nemenin lu. selagi lu masi didekat gw, gw akan lakukan itu, setelah u yakin lu bakal bahagia dengan org lain, silahkan pergi.. i have some reason to let u in and let u go.. so jgn merasa tak enak sama saia.. saia merasa beruntung perna mengenalmu..
u will think that i'm weird... i have some secret that u dont know..i wanna tell u, but, it's too difficult.. someday, u will know... i promise!!
nitez!!!

perjuangan selama kejurnas..

"hallooo" jd ingat sang kapten... tiep malam ga ada kerjaan masuk ke kamar satu persatu dari kamar 21-25.. cuma ngomong "halloo" sampe di kunciin ama kamar 23, hahaha...
berlokasi di jogjakarta, lebih tepat di hotel kusuma... jl.wijaya kusuma bla bla bla bla a.k.a lupa. hahaha.. nginep disono dari tgl 9-14, 14 pagi uda cek out, jalan2 di jogja...
para peserta yang terpilih masuk dalam tim binus adalah... eng ing eng... ora, depi, dino, pepso, rosi, julisa, cath, gage, gladys, cindy, ece dan gw. cowo2ny, ada ishak, dapid, edwin dan ko tonny. berawal dari nyampe di jogja trus ga tau hotelny ada dmana, mencari cara supaya bisa sampe ke hotelnya, dan akhirnya nyampe di hotel.. setelah di bagi kamarnya, pada kekamar masing2, kemudian, temenny depi datang, panggil dia "ria". trus dia mau minjemin kita mobil, dan kita harus ngambil dirumanya, muncullah geng motor ala binusian.. 3 motor, 6 org, motor 1, ria ama ece, motor 2, cindy ama rosi dan motor 3, gw ama depi. rencana awal pegi keruma ria dulu baru pegi makan, tp berhubung sudah laper tiada tara, akhirny kita pegi makan dulu, dan baru keruma ria.. singkat cerita, sampailah diruma ria, dimana dari hotel kita ke ruma dia tu, mmm... jauh bener!! melewati jalan yang panjang.. serasa tidak ada ujungnya.. gw lg membayangkan dia dulu tiep ari ke kampus pagi2 trus plg2ny malem2, gelap2, dan sepi.. ==" sampe diruma ria, kita duduk bentar dan berpoto ria didepan rumanya, setelah itu kita capcus dah.. kembali ke hotel. dan setelah itu, saia lupa apa yang terjadi.. hahahaha....

10 april 2010
pagi2 jogging dan mendadak ada insiden, kaki gladys kena apa gt, trs tergores gt.. serem liatnya,, darahny byk.. krn tar malam tanding, jadi harus conditioning gt dah.. hehe.. setelah itu, makan atau mandi dah... then rest, baru dah ke gor ny, tanding, ama stikes dan kalah... 44-49.. >.<

11 april 2010
hari ini ga da tanding, dan bebas dah pegi2, jadi ingat binus FM deh.. bertiga ama rosi and gladys, nyanyi di mobil, laguny blom abis, uda ganti lagu laen, kocak2.. kapan lag kita siaran binus FM?

12 april 2010
hari ini pagi2 tanding ama unair... huff.. jadi harus bgn pagi dah.. masa tandingnya jam 8 pagi.. org masi blom bgn uda pegang bola... dan kalah lagi... kali ini gw lupa scorenya.. pokokny kalah aja...

13 april 2010
hari ini tanding jam 3 sore.. vs maranatha.. fyi, gw uda kyk reunian tim pra pon aceh aja.. di stikes ada 3 org temen 1 tim gw, di marnat ada 2, hahaha.. melepas rindu gt dah.. tp sayang jadi lawan di kejurnas... trus lawan marnat, kita kalah lag.. >.< kalah 3x berturut2 membuat kita harus packing dan pulang..

14 april 2010
hari ini , kita plg, tp pagi ampe soreny kita jalan2 dulu, ke prambanan, makan bakso(gw lupa nama tempatnya, ingatny gw makan bakso aja.hahaha), liat batik dulu apa dagadu dulu ya?? dan berakhir di malioboro again, kemudian ketemu mph(ria) lag, pdahal tadi pagi uda say goodbye gt, tp ternyata ketemu lag.. haha.. then jam 5an jalan pulang ke jkt.. goodbye jogja and welcome jkt..

15 april 2010
jam 6 pagi sampe di binus..


ps :
byk hal2 kocak yang terjadi di jogja. aib2 anak2 tim bertebaran,
dari dance tori2, ada yg kebasahan, ada yg mengeluarkan suara mentel plus gema di binus FM, video2 cacad, byk bgt...

kejurnas pertama yang penuh kenangan, dan berharap taon depan, kita kejurnas lag!!!!
libama dki uda dimulai hari ini, dari tgl 18 april.... sampai tak tau kapan...
dan ntar malam cowo tanding.. jam 19.00
semangat!!!!!

sekian!!!

gC

insane

start : 6 February 2010, 03.33

1st part

gw sedih.. tp gw ga tau gmana ungkapin rasa sedih gw. krn org2 anggap, ga seharusny gw sedih.. ga seharusny gw mikirin itu, tp gw ngerasain perasaan itu. seperti gw ga tega klo tar tiba2 org itu bakal ngilang dari kehidupan gw, secara perlahan2 pastiny, krn tar dia punya kerjaan sendiri, punya tanggung jawab akan kerjaannya, dan juga yg jelas makin jarang ketemu dah.. temen gw, yg bisa gw culik2, yg bisa gw gangguin kapan aja, yg ga perna marah ke gw krn gw terlalu sering mengganggu dia, yg selalu dengarin gw klo emank lag cerita, dan dia itu bawel. mungkn rasa takut gw itu terlalu lebay ya.. skg blom kejadian kehilangan aja gw uda kyk gini. setiap org pasti punya rasa takut, dan rasa takut gw ada beberapa, tp gw plg takut kehilangan.. gw ga pengen ngerasain itu, tp ga mungkin.. dan gw juga ga boleh egois. gw seneng klo dia seneng.. klo dia sukses, gw juga seneng.. hope the best for her. good luck buat sidangnya, semoga dapat kerjaan slama di Indo. =D

2nd Part

gw punya byk temen, tp cuma beberapa yg bener2 gw percayai.. dalam beberapa hal. gw ga tau dah ini bener apa salah, gw juga uda ga peduli ini bener ato salah, krn yg ngejudge bukan gw, tp org2, sebelum kenal sama lu, hidup gw baek2 aja. ga ampe kyk gini, ga ampe gw harus menjadi org laen, ga ampe gw harus jadi pendiem, gak ampe gw ngelakuin hal yg ga harus gw lakuin, gw stress gara2 dia, perasaan itu mungkin bersifat sementara, sampai org yg tepat ditemukan. pada saat org yg tepat ditemukan, org itu suda ada yg punya, haruskah gw berdiri disebelahnya, menjadi pendengar yang baek, segala keluh kesah dia, di segala sisi, gw hanya bisa ngelakuin itu skg. knp gw ga perna bisa cerita apa2 ke lu, bkn krn gw ga percaya sama lu, tp gw ga mau buat lu mikirin masalah gw, krn masalah gw, pasti gw bisa selesai, terutama masalah yg ga ada hubungan ama lu, masalah yg blom bisa gw selesai itu cuma masalah gw ama u, antara ga akan terselesaikan krn ga ada yg mau selesai, atau cuma lu doank yg cuek dan menganggap itu ga ada masalah sama sekali. kenapa kita harus kyk gini? sampai kapan? hmm.... ga ada yg bisa jawab semua pertnyaan gw, kecuali org yg bersangkutan..

3rd part

happy part... gw ga sabar nunggu tgl 8,9 dan 10 Feb.. 8 temen gw mau dtang dan kita akan berkongko2 ria.. curhat segala macem masalah.. dan tgl 8 bday temen gw, trus hari final exam gw. the last day.. cant wait!!! trus tgl 9, seharusny tgl segini gw uda balik ke ACEH, tp krn temen gw sidang, dan gw mau support pluz nntn dia sidang, jadi gw stay 1 more day di jkt.. semangat teman!!! dan last, tgl 10.. itu tanggal gw plg ke ACEH!! yaaaayyy!!! its mean HOLIDAYS!!! selama kurang lebih 11 atau 12 hari gw bakal ada diaceh.. holiday.. semoga hal2 yg baek terjadi disono.. gw kangen keluarga gw.. sangat teramat kangen... grandma, grandpa, dad,mom, my lil bro... so damn miss all of you!!! all of my family... kangen bgt dah... trus tar jalan2 ama temen2 gw.. wait for me yaahh... =D dan kesekolah gw dah.. ketemu guru2. itupun klo gw kesekolah(sebenarny si males bgt.. wkwkwkw)
dan utk pertama kaliny, gw puas ama nilai 1 mata kuliah, ntah krn dosenny baek, atau gw bener2 puas krn di mata kuliah ini, gw ga perlu belajar extra, cukup review... walopun blom perfect tp stidakny better... gw ucapkan terima kasih buat dosennya..

4th part
BASKETBALL
kapan pertama kalinya lu megang bola basket ges? masi ingat ga lu? disaat lu blom bisa maen, masi cupu bgt. dribble aja ga bisa. passing aja ga bisa jauh2, lay up ga bisa (walopun skg juga masi blom gt bisa), shoot aja asal2, defense parah bgt.. offense apa lag.. dan skg, skg uda lebi baik dari kemarin2, krn selama beberapa tahun ini lu tetep latian dan latian, beecup dan kejurnas didepan mata, jgn sampe ada 1 hal pun yg buat lu ga fokus, segala macam masalah, jgn dibawa ke lapangan, klo ada masalah ama anggota team {bukan didalam basket(masalah pribadi)} jgn dibawa2 ke lapangan, selesaikan di luar basket, be professional. dari apa yg lu liat skg ini, di team binus cewe, team binus cowo, team thi cewe.. lu pasti belajar something, RESPECT EACH OTHER!! anyway, no offense.. dulu gw cuma org yg selalu ingin show off, org yg tiep game gw harus maen, harus nyetak poin, minute play gw byk, di blg jago ama org2, tp skg, gw sadar, gw maen basket, bukan maen sendiri, tp maenny ama team, 1 org salah, semuanya salah, 1 org menang, semuanya menang. kontribusi buat team? siapa yg ga mau kontribusi buat team? siapa yg bisa tenang duduk di bench ngeliat teamny kalah? jgn hny duduk di bench, gw yg duduk dibangku penonton, liat team gw kalah aja, gw gregetan pengen maen, pengen pengen pengen, tp gw di roling, dan gw terima itu, krn dia punya alasan sendiri kenapa gw diroling dan gw sendiri ngerasa, skg saatny ngasi kesempatan buat yg laen, krn ga selamany gw bisa maen, dan gw juga ga bakal bisa maen full 4x10, butuh pemain pengganti juga euy.. wkwkwkw.. kontribusi buat team itu bukan hanya dilapangan doank, bukan hanya cetak poin, lu ngasi support dari bench, dari tempat duduk penonton, itu juga uda kontribusi buat team. lu ingatin 1 sama laen juga uda kontribusi. jgn perna ngerasa lu hebat.. krn masi ada org hebat diatas lu. semoga ini semua menjadi pelajaran buat kita semua, bukan batu sandungan, krn dengan begini, kita jadi tau, kita jadi lebi ngerti satu sama laen, dan 1 lag.. mau lawan siapapun, ingat,motivasi kita harus tetap besar, jgn perna ngeremehin lawan, dan jgn pernah lengah. bola itu bundar, tidak ada 1 orgpun memberikan kemenanganny kepada org laen, kadang kala kita harus merebut apa yg seharusny menjadi milik kita. see you di Kejurnas dan Beecup

5th part (last part)

thx for read this blog..
ini cuma isi pikiran gw doank..
klo ada kata2 yg salah, gw minta maaf secara pribadi.
ga ada maksud buat nyinggung, ga ada maksud buat mojokin.
ini murni pikiran gw doank dan review buat diri gw mendatang.
semua org pasti perna ngelakuin kesalahan..
mau yg disengaja ataupun ngak
intiny, jgn mengulang kesalahan yang sama.
klo diulang terus, itu akan jadi kebiasaan
jadi jangan diulang lag..
yg nilai bukan lu sendiri, tp org laen..
perasaan marah itu ga ada gunany, krn ga akan nyelesain masalah
yg ada hanya perasaan kecewa..
good nitez all
eh salah deng
met subuh temen2...
signing off

end
6 February 2010, 04.12